I am back! ;-)

So much has happened since the last post, but mostly the good things, so I have nothing to complain ;-).

One of my really best friends is expecting a baby in November, and because how much difficult they have gone through to finally have their wish, I pray every day to my grandfather (apart from many other things I am praying to ask of him ;-)) that he protects the baby, even the mommy admits she becomes a bit paranoid now with the pregnancy ;-).

Soon it will be my dad's death rememberance, the truth is I didn't know it until recently I was chatting with my haft sister, I was asking about my dad, question like how he was with her, conclusion was that although I was not a big fan of my dad, she and my haft brother were. One of my friends advised me that I should not look for the past because sometimes it doesn't help much or even bring more trouble to the people of the present time. Maybe he is right, and since I have been trying to live without asking to many questions about the past, I am actually very happy.

I don't know whether because I am becoming 30 years old or else, I have changed even more during the course of the past months. Maybe when your life was in a mess in many ways, you would try to find yourself, your own ways...Although I have not succeeded the most part of this task, I am so happy of where I am now. I think about the concept of "friend" differently, I choose my friends carefully (in this aspect, I usually have no problems since until now I have mostly good friends) but I mean like the way I become a friend with a new person has changed, and the process takes longer or like in the past I would have anybody I find nice over to my place for a dinner but now it does not work that way. It might be a shame or that I will miss to know someone better, but for now it seems like it works at its best. When the "friend" concept changes, serious things like "boyfriend", "relationship" surely changes, too. A lot. I guess maybe during the 30 first years, I personally learnt much through falling down, and when you fall, you learn the best lesson of all. Anyway, it is like I have become the whole new person, become vigilant and build a protection net around me.

So much for all the changes. I also met with my friend who moved all the way to Australia and her baby after one year, another friend moved to Holland with the new job, and another one is getting married next year ;-). Seem like we all move to the next stage, become responsible-hopefully not boring and grumpy (yeah, no wiseness come without big responsibility), and me I am aiming for even a bigger change ;-), working on it at least, so wait and see!

More posts will come during the next months. Until then, stay tune, y'all! ;-)